Forgive me for changing my mind once again. I’m legally fickle, if such a status exists. On my previous post, I talked about going home to continue my studies and I too am pretty convinced at that time that it’s gonna be a decision with a hundred percent certainty although it’s something not clearly planned.

Today I had one of the best days of my life. With some friends, an impromptu trip to one of Maasin City’s famous beaches was conjured up as I wait for the clock to tick 10 PM—for my scheduled trip back to the Queen City of the South. It turns out as something more than a beach trip though and it’s all thanks to the monsoons (I cannot, however, tell you which type).

The waves were not as big as those in Siargao but it’s enough to send a 330-pounder tumbling to the shores if one is not careful and strong enough to withstand it’s force, which makes it more fun and exciting (like Lady Gaga’s idea of making love). This has been the most straining activity I’ve done in about a year and it’s aftermath can now be felt with every movement of my body. With doubt as to the next step to take, still clouding my mind, today’s fun escapade ended up with me climbing the steps of the only ship bound from Maasin to Cebu, M/V Filipinas Ilo-ilo (a vessel I once boarded after a weeks trip to Boracay about three years ago).

A Facebook buddy once said that doubt is a gift, cause it puts us between two certainties and perhaps that’s how i should look at it. I’m drafting this blog post on board the ship but that does not mean that I already decided to stay where I am now—in Cebu, basking in the agony of adult life and striving to survive the next day just like people who leave the comforts of their hometown in search for a pasteur, greener or otherwise. What it means still has to be deciphered based on the events which will happen in the next three days or so.

As I told Cherry Dy, a friend of mine, I don’t really have any life plans, and if I do, it will be something written in a pencil to make editing a breeze. All major decisions, starting from my bid for the SK Federations presidency, had ways been made on the spur of the moment based on how I decipher the signs. I have some regrets along the way but it’s nothing major. Besides those bumps, I could say that I’ve been generally happy. Or perhaps, I just tried to be. (See how fickle I am?)

For someone who does not practice his faith on the divine as much as any church going Tom, Dick and Harry, I believe that somehow, the Fates would lead me to the right path to take just like a prophet being led by god.

Now that, is blasphemy.